Friday, March 23, 2007

..what did I do today..?

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, Most Merciful...

Everyday, our routine would be the same. Typically for CSMU students, nothing would be less common than attending lectures, classes, enlightening the buses for hospital subjects, and eventually returning home, with dishes-of-the-day thoughts lingering in mind.

Come to think about it, have we did by any modus operandi anything for our beloved religion?

Muslimahs may say that attending weekly usrahs and ceramahs are already sufficient. For muslims, they may believe that praying jama'ah at the mosque every time Maghrib settles in is already a big marvel. All in all, it relies most on how sincere our heart could be.

Sincerity? Talking about sincereness..

"..those who feel forced to change lose, but those who force themselves to change win.."

translated :

"..orang yang berubah kerana terpaksa adalah mangsa, tetapi orang yang memaksa dirinya berubah adalah orang yang berjaya.." - Ustaz Hasrizal

Recalling the good old days, I remember those days of Form 1 at high school when everyone was forced to assemble at the musolla every Jumaat for the weekly talks and gatherings that we would have with the BDK prefects ( BDK = Badan Dakwah dan Kerohanian).

Normally everything would be smooth sailing, till some harsh voices chip in. Of course, what else if not..rebels from the rebellious.

Senior : siape yang rase x ikhlas duduk kat musolla ni..rase buang mase je, lebih baik tengok tv kat bilik tv, sile keluar.

A few students would rise up, and head for the door.

Senior : berani ye adik-adik nie.

Junior : akak yang kate..kalau x ikhlas jangan datang kan. kalau saye x ikhlas buat ape turun. bukannye saye concentrate pun ape akak cakap.

Senior : Ya Allah..kecik-kecik dah macam nie..(shakes her head)



The junior exited the musolla, leaving us with puzzled minds, eyes glued on the floor, for no one dare peak a glance at the seniors.

What happened may seem simple, nevertheless little do we realize the boons and banes disguising. The junior had an opportunity to better herself, but she just couldn't care less to do it, let alone realize it.

The daily jottings of life, everyday, we would face situations that require immediate decisions, some that deal with our future. To do, or not to do. To go for, or just leave. To buy or not to buy.
TO CHANGE, OR STAY THE WAY I AM.

At some times, we may feel forced to do something beyond our will.

A: Jom pegi surau

B : Xmo. Ko pegila. Kalo x ikhlas buat ape.

But until when should we wait for our hearts to be sincere? To open up for a change? And moreover, can we really justify how sincere it is? Only Allah can..




At moments when changes seem difficult, it's these simple initial steps that would implicitly open up our hearts to change into a new leaf. It also signifies the crucial need of solat istikharah to plot our next steps, the steps that trail along the lane that leads to mardhatillah..

Berubahlah sedikit demi sedikit, lama-lama kite akan 'terubah' sendiri (tapi berubah ke arah perkara mahmudah ye, bukan mazmumah..hehe).

For Allah knows better than us..


2 comments:

Al-Hussainy said...

assalamualaikum wbt...bila baca ni..cam terasa bertanggungjawab lak nak kasi sedikit pandangan atau seeloknya kita kata sini nasihat...emmm setiap orang mempunyai level sendiri untuk berubah..ada yang baru berjinak jinak untuk mengubah diri dia..ada yang dah peringkat lebey up dah untuk berubah...walauape pun..level kita..wallahualam..tetapi intipati kepada semua lonjakan diatas adalah berpunca daripada kemahuan kita sendiri untuk berubah..dan percayalah...orang lain memang x berhak memaksa kita untuk berubah..tetapi kita sendiri..berhak memaksa diri kita ni untuk berubah...atau dalam kata lain bertanggungjawab untuk mencorak diri kita sendirik..bagaimana??
ermmm...semuanya hanyalah memrlukan latihan...bagaimana kita nak mendapat latihan itu?
mendekatkan diri sedaya upaya kepada Allah...bagaimana?
hurmmm...dengan berusaha sebaik mungkin-saya x cakap semaksima mungkin-terlibat dalam sebarang aktiviti yang menjurus kita dekat denganNya..kita dengan itu akan mendapat petunjuk dari Allah..sebab kita berada diatas jalan Nya--fisabillah-insyaAllah kita akan mendapat bimbingan dariNya...bila kita join xtvt yang mendekatkan diri kita denganNya..pintu hati kita ni lambat laun akan diketuk jua...kita ni manusia..selalu kena mendapat nasihat..darimana titik punca atau sasaran utama nasihat itu?HATI....dari hati..kita akan mula berfikir...betul jua mende ni..kita akan start mengikhlas kan diri kita ...dari situ...kita akan menerima petunjuk dari Nya sebab kita sedang cuba mengikhlaskan hati kita ni..-Allah x pandang hasil ye kengkawan semua..Allah memandng usaha kita-kalau kita nak tunggu hati kita ikhlas baru nak berubah..x betul la tu...taj mahal terbelah dua pun x berjaya leerrr...sebabnya perubaahan bukanlah suatu state...tetapi lebih kepada proses .x statik ..samada berubah lebih baik atau menjunam...sebabnya simple-perubahan adalah satu proses sepanjang hayat..akan berterusan...satu usaha kita yang x kan ada penghujungnya dalam mencari keredhaanNya...soalnya skang ni..nak ubah ke tak?hehehehe...assalamualaikum

Hamba ALLAH said...

waalaikumsalam..erk sbnanye itula msg yg cube diberi..hehe..tp tsirat sgt yer..huhu nk kne ubah balik nie..trimekaseh yer sbb bagi pndgn kalo x smpai biler x prasan..huhu